It's complicated.

I'm not sure how I should start the first post in 2014. It's suppose to be an update that's cheerful. But that wasn't why the reason I've decided to write this post. I need to let out what I feel, and it isn't anything near happy. But first, an update.

I've deleted most of my previous post. I want to start fresh, leaving the past behind. I have a feeling that this year is going to be different. I'm turning officially 21 in a few months, and will be officially graduating in July too. Finals was just over and I already planned not to continue pursuing my degree. Hence, I'll be working full time very soon. But in the mean time, I'm giving myself a break, but of course I'll be working part time. I guess I need to take a breathe from the few years of always knowing that I have something that I need to do, always having a packed schedule. But now, I don't know what's next, I have no schedule, and truly for once in my life, I have all the time in the world. I could go find mom and maybe we'd go lunch together, I could go shopping, I could read all day, I could catch movies, I could go to the beach, I could hang out with friends. I could do anything I want. If I have enough money now, I'd probably be flying off tomorrow to an island or any other places that I want to go. But unfortunately, that isn't going to happen yet. The first thing I need to do now is save up for travelling if I wanna leave Malaysia for a while.

Is this the time where I find what I really want to be? Where I want to go? What I want to do? Is this the feeling of taking a gap year exploring what I like? If it is, I seriously regret of not taking a gap year after graduating. I jumped right into university after graduating from high school just because everyone thinks I should. I never gave myself enough time to think through of what I like. I just went by what everyone thinks I should do. It didn't end well, I wasn't mentally prepared to start pursuing a higher education. My exam results were bad, and I end up dropping out from the university and joining another. Honestly speaking, I had a great time at the second college. I focused a lot more as I did in the previous one. I learnt a lot and most importantly, I had fun. A lot of fun. I tried a lot of things and it helped me so much more in learning what I enjoy doing. I found out being a radio DJ was fun, I have more interest in the movie industry, and most of all, I found the motivation in becoming a photographer. I've always like taking photos, but I never had a proper lesson in it. But there was two subjects for photography that I took when I was studying. I learn a lot but unfortunately, not much to the point that I know how to shoot in a studio because our college didn't have a studio. Ending the life of almost 3 years as a broadcasting student, I certainly learnt a lot and I thank the lecturers and tutors that taught me.

Anyway, this post seems to be mashed up of my latest situation and how I'm feeling. It's complicated now, of what I'm feeling.

Hello! I'm alive!!

Hey people! I know this blog's kinda dead recently. Well, didn't have the kinda mood to blog anymore and time has been eating me up.. Though I'm not busy with anything lately. And yeah, I've got my results... It wasn't what like I expected.. I was quite down when I got it.. Enough about that.. I'm thinking about which U or college to enter these days. Im interested in everything and I really don't wanna waste my time doing something Im not really interested in.... So.. Trying to figure out my future right now. gotta go.

♥ Hachikō ♥

Hey people,

I think I might have miss out my best movie of all time in 2009.

Hachiko. ♥

 A movie based on a true story.

The one I just watched in HBO is a remake American version of Hachiko Monogatari, ハチ公物語 (literally “The Tale of Hachiko) directed by, Seijirō Kōyama.   

I'm now looking for the Japanese version. Though it's was produced in 1987. Might be hard to find it, but hey, why not give it a try?

Here's the review for the American version.

Based on a true story from Japan, Hachiko Monogatari ハチ公物語 (literally “The Tale of Hachiko”) is a moving film about loyalty and the rare, invincible bonds that occasionally form almost instantaneously in the most unlikely places.

In the modern day, a class full of young students is giving oral presentations about personal heroes. A boy named Ronnie stands up and begins to tell of 'Hachiko', his grandfather's dog. Years before, an Akita puppy is sent from Japan to the United States, but his cage falls off the baggage cart at an American train station, where he is found by college professor Parker Wilson (Richard Gere). Parker is instantly captivated by the dog. When Carl, the station controller, refuses to take him, Parker takes the puppy home overnight. His wife Cate (Joan Allen) is insistent about not keeping the puppy.

The next day Parker expects that someone will have contacted the train station, but no one has. He sneaks the pup onto the train and takes him to work, where a Japanese college professor, Ken, translates the symbol on the pup's collar as 'Hachi', Japanese for 'good fortune', and the number 8. Parker decides to call the dog 'Hachi'. Ken points out that perhaps the two are meant to be together. Parker attempts to play fetch with Hachi, but he refuses to join in. Meanwhile Cate receives a call about someone wanting to adopt Hachi. After seeing how close her husband has come to Hachi, however, Cate agrees that they can keep him.

A few years later, Hachi and Parker are as close as ever. Parker, however, is still mystified by Hachi's refusal to do normal, dog-like things like chase and retrieve a ball. Ken advises him that Hachi will only bring him the ball for a special reason. One morning, Parker leaves for work and Hachi sneaks out and follows him to the train station, where he refuses to leave until Parker walks him home. That afternoon, Hachi sneaks out again and walks to the train station, waiting patiently for Parker's train to come in. Eventually Parker relents and walks Hachi to the station every morning, where he leaves on the train. Hachi leaves after Parker's safe departure, but comes back in the afternoon to see his master's train arrive and walk with him home again. This continues for some time, until one afternoon Parker attempts to leave, but Hachi barks and refuses to go with him. Parker eventually leaves without him, but Hachi chases him, holding his ball. Parker is surprised but pleased that Hachi is finally willing to play fetch the ball with him. Worried that he will be late for the college, Professor Parker leaves on the train despite Hachi barking at him. At work that day Parker, still holding Hachi's ball, is teaching his music class when he suddenly suffers a heart attack and dies.

At the train station, Hachi waits patiently as the train arrives, but there is no sign of Parker. He remains, lying in the snow, for several hours, until Parker's son-in-law Michael comes to collect him. The next day, Hachi returns to the station and waits, remaining all day and all night. As time passes, Cate sells the house and Hachi is sent to live with her daughter Andy, Michael, and their new baby Ronnie. However, at the first opportunity, he escapes and eventually finds his way back to his old house and then to the train station, where he sits at his usual spot, eating hot dogs given to him by Jas, a local vendor. Andy arrives soon after and takes him home, but lets him out the next day to return to the station.

Hachi begins sleeping under a broken train carriage, keeping vigil during the day and surviving off food and water given to him by Jas and the local butcher. One day, a man named Teddy, a newspaper reporter, inquires about Hachi and asks if he can write a story about him. People begin to send money to Carl to buy Hachi food. Ken, Parker's friend, reads the article, and offers to pay for Hachi's upkeep. He realizes that although it has been a year, Hachi wants to, and has to, wait for his master, and wishes him a long life. "If Hachiko must wait, then Hachiko must wait," as Ken says.

Years pass, and still Hachi waits. Cate visits Parker's grave, where she meets Ken, and she says that even though it has been a decade, she still misses him. Arriving at the station, she is stunned to see Hachi, old, dirty and weak, still maintaining his vigil. Overcome, Cate sits and waits for the next train with him. At home, Cate tells the now ten-year-old Ronnie about Hachi. That night, Hachi makes his way to his usual spot, where he lies down and falls asleep for the last time, dreaming of his master, and later sees a vision of Parker who picks him up in a joyous reunion before their spirits rise to heaven.

Ronnie, back in his classroom, finishes his report, telling his classmates that Hachi, for his love and loyalty, will forever be his hero. That afternoon, he walks his own Akita puppy named Hachi along the same track his grandfather once walked with his own Hachi.

Before the movie ended, that's when I knew that this movie was based on a true story.The real Hachikō was born in Odate in 1923. His real owner,Hidesaburo Ueno died in 1925 was revealed and says how Hachiko returned to the Shibuya train station the next day and for the next nine years for his appearance. The death of Hachiko in 1934 was revealed too (in fact, Hachiko died in 1935). Before the end credits roll, a photo of his statue in the train station with a short briefing of it is shown.

Hachikō (ハチ公, November 10, 1923–March 8, 1935), known in Japanese as chūken Hachikō(忠犬ハチ公, "faithful dog Hachikō" ('hachi' meaning 'eight', a number referring to the dog's birth order in the litter, and 'kō,' meaning prince or duke)), was an Akita dog born on a farm near the city of Ōdate, Akita Prefecture,remembered for his loyalty to his owner, even many years after his owner's death.

Hachiko died on March 8, 1935, and was found on a street in Shibuya. His heart was infected with filarial worms and 3-4 yakitori sticks were found in his stomach.His story has touched many hearts in Japan and worldwide. Teachers and parents has used Hachiko's vigil as an example to the children. 

Like what the movie has shown, as the years of Hachiko's waiting, his story was published by Ueno's student  (who had become an amateur expert on the Akita breed) saw the dog at the station and followed him to the Kobayashi home (the home of the former gardener of Professor Ueno — Kikuzaboro Kobayashi) where he learned the history of Hachikō's life. Shortly after this meeting, the former student published a documented census of Akitas in Japan. His research found only 30 purebred Akitas remaining, including Hachikō from Shibuya Station.

He returned frequently to visit the dog and over the years published several articles about Hachikō's remarkable loyalty. In 1932 one of these articles, published in Tokyo Asahi Shimbun, threw the dog into the national spotlight. Hachikō became a national sensation. His faithfulness to his master's memory impressed the people of Japan as a spirit of family loyalty all should strive to achieve. Teachers and parents used Hachikō's vigil as an example for children to follow. 

Eventually, Hachiko's legendary faithfulness became a national symbol of loyalty.

In memorable of him, a well-known Japanese artist rendered a sculpture of the dog, and throughout the country a new awareness of the Akita breed grew.His stuffed and mounted remains are kept at the National Science Museum of Japan in Ueno, Tokyo. Each year on April 8, Hachikō's devotion is honored with a solemn ceremony of remembrance at Tokyo's Shibuya railroad station. Hundreds of dog lovers often turn out to honor his memory and loyalty

I guess we could still 'see' him at the Shibuya Station, or the National Science Museum of Japan.

I was touched by the loyalty of Hachiko. The loyalty and love between family. I guess I couldn't say it as the relationship of owner and a dog. Because somehow once entered in the house,we all consider them as family. And we love them as one too. 

Hachiko's statue.

The real Hachiko.

Hachiko's story was produced into films, books, video games, television dramas and all.

Eventually, in 1994, the Culture Broadcasting Network (CBN) in Japan was able to lift a recording of Hachikō barking from an old record that had been broken into several pieces. A huge advertising campaign ensued and on Saturday, May 28, 1994, 59 years after his death, millions of radio listeners tuned in to hear Hachikō bark. This event was testimony to Hachikō's continuing popularity.

I guess Hachiko was not the only friend that's loyal. When I was looking for facts for this post, I found out that they are a few dogs that stayed with their owner after their owners death.

Greyfriars Bobby, a Skye Terrier in Edinburgh, Scotland, was loyal to his master long after his master's death in 1858. Until Bobby's death 14 years later, he reportedly spent every night at his master's grave. A statue in memorial of Greyfriars Bobby was erected near the graveyard.

In Teresopolis, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, a dog named "Leão" (meaning "Lion" in Portuguese) continues for a second day at the grave of his owner Maria Cristina Cesario Santana, who was one of the over 630 people killed by 2011 Brazilian floods and landslides in January 17, 2011 at the carioca state.

In Snake Gully, Australia, the monument Dog on the Tuckerbox exists, inspired by a bullock driver's poem, Bullocky Bill, which celebrates the life of a mythical driver's dog that loyally guarded the man's tuckerbox (lunch box) until death.

In Spain, there was a similar case. Canelo, in 1990, went with his master to Cadiz hospital in order to recive his periodic treatment of dialysis, until one day there were a series of complications and he died. However, Canelo waited him for 12 long years until in 2002 died after being ran over by an unidentified vehicle. In his honor, his name was given to a street, where a plaque was put.

Thanks to Wikipedia, I now appreciate Rex. ♥ ♥ ♥

I think this is why human ain't that 'pure' anymore after decades ruling the earth.I wonder actually, humans can think logically and have more emotional feelings than dogs. Then why aren't we that loyalty and loving towards the ones we know?

Conclusion?

this movie is worth of your time to spend on. And please, do love your dog. Their not a toy to entertain us, but a loving family member. Trust me, they have more feelings and love towards us than we can imagine. We just couldn't see it. 

I don't like to go 'OMGaaaaad, this fakin-crazy-sonofab!thc-jack@ss fella! Torture her/his dog oh!!' when I'm reading the news or watching YOUTUBE! LOL. 

Ain't joking. I mean it. 

p/s, whaaaaat a long post! haha.

heehee.

goodnight.

Confession. 告白.

A japanese thriller in 2010. Directed by Tetsuya Nakashima. 

I was browsing for new movies just now. Not much of English movies lately, so search for Asian movies instead. Well, this ain't new. But hey, better then nothing. Since I'm supa dupa boring at home. Anyway, just finished watching it. Here's some review. 

It kinda uses the technique like 'Lost', everyone has their own story and thoughts. At first, it started in a classroom, filled with students all doing their own thing, the teacher, main actress, was talking. No one seem to bother her, but she still continued. She started with saying how students didn't appreciate life, then she told her story. Her daughter die in the school pool one day. The police said it was a accident, but she knew, someone killed her, and that someone ain't just one, but two. The two people is now in that class. Exactly right now. She wasn't gonna make this case big and go to the police. Because the students are still 14, and for that age, the law still protects them. Even if they did something that's against the law, nothing would happen to them. 

She continued on, she's going to take revenge to those two who killed her daughter. When she was talking, the students were all drinking milk, given by the teacher, well school as you can say. After saying that she would take revenge on those two, she told them, she inserted blood into the milk that was drank by the two killers. The blood is from a HIV patient, which is her husband. The class got quite, and everyone was in shocked. The two of course, made a big reaction. Typically, everyone knew who the teacher was talking about, the two killer.

Soon, stories begin, different people has their own story to tell and thoughts to show. The movie surrounds just a few people, 3 students & a teacher.  Who killed her daughter? Well, I guess it's yours to find out! 

Those who don't like to watch bloody scenes. 

Please don't watch it. 

I myself love it. LOL!

You'll get boring if you don't concentrate on the movie to know what's it all about. Please pay attention people! I kinda enjoyed the movie, though it wasn't for others.

I guess I won't agree to those who don't seem to understand the importance of life to watch it. Below the age of 14 or 13 maybe. Why? In the movie, boys at age 14, is already killing. What happens if those un-matured minded teens watch it and feel that, killing is nothing. What'll happen then?

Another true story of 'Confession'?

Tomorrow, Acoustic 어쿠스틱,a korean movie, by Shin Se Kyung.

She's sooooo pretty! 

A lot of other idol's in it too.

✾◕ ‿ ◕✾

告白

7 ★ out of 10 ★ for me. 

Samsung Galaxy S

I want a Samsung Galaxy S!!!

If I haven't mentioned, my phone is currently not really working.
It blacks out some times when I want to reply sms, or when calls coming in.
Maybe getting this after receiving my salary.
Still I do hope I get the job first. xp

Here's some information about it!

Bright, fast, and connected

Enjoy the best viewing experience with 4.0" SUPER AMOLED (Active-Matrix Organic Light-Emitting Diode) display. With 80% less reflection, you can watch your favourite content in broad daylight and enjoy a crisp, clear picture. And, with 1Ghz processor, 16 GB internal memory, and Wireless Tethering, you have the speed, space, and access you need to stay connected wherever you roam.

Samsung Around Me augmented reality

Use GALAXY S's exclusive Layar Browser powered by Tele Atlas®, to see real-time digital information right on top of the real world. Thanks to Tele Atlas, you can see more POIs (points of interest) from your current location, such as which train is on the corner, or customer reviews about the café across the street. Just point the phone's camera in your chosen direction, and see everything you need to know.

Turn-by-Turn Navigation

Let Samsung GALAXY S be your co-pilot. With automatic car mode when in the car cradle, Samsung GALAXY S uses Google Maps™ to give you three different views - real street view, traffic view, and satellite view. 

Google, the Google logo and Google Maps are trademarks of Google, Inc. TeleAtlas® Maps Data © 2009

Chrome-lite

Text at hyperspeed with Swype

Reach speeds of up to 40 words per minute with Swype. Rather than requiring you to hit each letter accurately, Swype has a built-in intelligence that follows the path your finger traces on the keyboard. Just trace the word you want to write, and Swype will do the rest. And, with the Write & Go app, you can swype a message and send it directly from the notepad by SNS, SMS, Email, Calendar, or Memo.

A universe of content

Immerse yourself in your rich media content like never before. Enhance your reading experience with Aldiko ebook. Easily source gaming content from PC and Android Market™, and enjoy the best picture quality. Record in HD and play it in HD right on your TV with the phone as the remote control. 

Android Market is a trademark of Google, Inc.

Edit documents with ease

Access your saved documents and update them while on the go. Thanks to ThinkFree Office Mobile, you can add images or edit text within your Word, Excel, and Powerpoint documents.

Your social life in one place

The GALAXY S's Integrated Contacts brings your email and SNS contacts into one phone book, allowing you to check your friends' status updates and newly added photos directly from your Contacts. And, thanks to Social Hub Inbox, you can manage all your incoming and outgoing messages. Plus, integrate your Google™ and Facebook calendars with Calendar. 

The upgrade of Social Hub to Premium service depends on country and carrier. 

Google is a trademark of Google, Inc.

Your devices in harmony

Transform the way you use your digital library. Whenever you're at home, with AllShare™ via DLNA you have the freedom and flexibility to enjoy and share all of your digital content with any Samsung DLNA-certified® devices and other DLNA-certified® ones.

Network

GPRS Class 10 : Yes EDGE : Yes 3G : HSDPA 7.2 / HSUPA 5.76

Display

Type :  Super AMOLED (C-type) Resolution : WVGA (480x800) 

Size

Weight : 119g Dimension : 64.2 x 122.4 x 9.9

Battery

Talk Time : Up to 790 min(2G), 400 min(3G)  Standby : Up to 750 hrs(2G), 600 hrs(3G)  Lazy to type the rest of the specs ,  Gotta go take my nap  heeheeee~  sleepy ad~

Catch That Kid!

Catch That Kid! is a 2004 American adventure comedy film directed by Bart Freundlich.

Here's a full synopsis of it.

Madeline Rose "Maddy" Phillips (Kristen Stewart) is a 12-year old girl who loves to climb. Her father, Tom (Sam Robards), has climbed Mount Everest, so it runs in the family. Several years earlier, Tom fell more than 100 feet during a climb, and because her parents are afraid she might hurt herself, they have ordered Maddy not to climb. Tom had some internal injuries from that earlier fall, which he didn't know, and now the injury has paralyzed him from the neck down. There is an experimental operation, costing $250,000, which can save him. Insurance won't pay for the operation, and the family doesn't have the money.

She steals three go-carts from her father and convinces her two friends, Gus (Max Thieriot) and Austin (Corbin Bleu), to help her. They remain hesitant, so she tells both of them that she loves him and doesn't care for the other, and gives half of her friendship necklace to each of them, claiming she has the other half and kissing them both. They break into Harderbach Financial, a bank in which Maddy's mother, Molly (Jennifer Beals), had begun to work for, creating a security system. They manage to break in, but with her mother at the hospital visiting their father, she is forced to babysit her younger brother, Max (Grant Hayden Scott and Sean Avery Scott). She and Gus progress to a room with thousands of security deposit boxes while Austin keeps the guards away from them. Maddy has to free climb to get to the exit when her hook gets caught in a crack when using the handhelds. She cracks the code, finding it is Madeline, and they flee the room, unintentionally setting off an alarm. While escaping from the guard dogs, at which point Austin demonstrates his dog-training skills, the trio is caught by Gus's brother, who tases his partner (and then himself, though accidentally) after understanding the situation. However, just before escaping, Gus and Austin find out that Maddy played them after seeing each others' necklaces.

The two hop into their go carts, trailed by the police, but Austin holds all the cash in his cart, running out of gas. He then leaps into Gus's cart, and they escape to the hospital. However, they are caught up to by Maddy's mother, the bank security, the police, and the press. Maddy's mother then takes responsibility, saying that this was an authorized test for the bank's security. The press sympathizes with them, allowing them to hold a fundraiser the day after, earning enough money for Maddy's father's surgery. At the go cart rally after the operation, Gus and Austin make Maddy decide who she loves. She backs away while they argue, and they run after her when they realize she is trying to ditch them, which is how the movie ends.

=) I've watched the movie for a few times, find it nice. 

heeheeee~